i welcomed in the new year with a mushroom ceremony that graciously gave me more than i expected
i was taken to the writing of my soul contract (there were aliens)
& my birth into this world
it was so beautiful
so heart wrenching
(how could it ever be one without the other )
i was resistant
not in ceremony
but in coming to this world
i had a somatic $ex bod session in Sept which helped move me through what felt like one of my biggest contractions (bc of deeply how i surrendered)…& it was the same theme
resistance to this world… to the 3D
over the last 1.5 years
i’ve watched not only myself but so many of my clients & friends move through similar icky-in between-stuckness
the…i don’t wanna get up & fight…i don’t wanna be here in this body…i don’t wanna do it
i hear…see…feel you
some people want ‘more’ - more money, bigger biz, more lovers, hotter $ex, wider impact, more...
we did the thing! @pd215 & i recorded our first @trppodcast episode together& there’s already been so much juicciiiiiii feedback from y’all
we only got to one question from the story poll…so you know there’s gonna be a part 2, 3 & beyond
we talked about:
how we met, what we were looking for, safety, polyamory, $ex, projections of who we thought the other was, love vs. freedom, the dynamic of our relationship, & then some
catch the latest @trppodcast episodes on iTunes + Spotify!
here’s the latest:
306: Choose it enough & it WILL happen
305: how to support yourself when making big decisions & leaning into the next level
304: 6 practices to embody your wild woman
303: 5 Ways To Start Talking About $ex & Pleasure With Your Clients
302: Mindset Shifts To Play A Bigger Money Game
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…he was salty about diesel’s airtime
i brag these little angel babies & their unconditional love!
i brag i enrolled a powerhouse 1:1 client last week into a year long mentorship at 75k ...& it was seriously the easiest enrollment i’ve ever had!
i brag this woman has never done 1:1 work with me before & was already a ‘yes’ before we got on our call!
i brag the ripple effect of co-creating with heart centered leaders.
i brag money as an incredible tool to expand our consciousness & drop deeper into service
i brag the investment with my biz coach that had me ‘go first’
i brag it gets to be this easy.
it keeps getting better & wetter.
i future brag…
the wildly transformative, orga$mically earth shattering second weekend of IN THE FLESH (that starts thisssss Friday!!!!)
it’s going to be a p a r t y
may you Know your desires as whispers from the universe
may you see the limiting...
i danced around naked wearing gold jewels he got me for xmas & reorganized our place to make it more functional + livable
i transformed our ‘art corner’ (which would typically be someone’s dining area) to my little zen den office…so Paul can have the downstairs floor to himself
i transformed the Womb Room (which is a ceremony/session room + upcoming membership offer) into my bedroom because it was time we actually declared separate spaces
…instead of just switching every week (i’m not a shared bedroom type of gal - my Energetic Blueprint needs S P A C E)
all of this…
while my Handler, Dalen, took care of groceries, meal prep, drop off, & fridge organization
i gave her items to run errands (like a return + a necklace to bring to the jewelers for repair)
a couple of additional random strangling open loops that she can take care of for me (like registering my new Jag & getting ExpressToll set up)
(pt 2) it used to feel so unsafe to ask for help & support. i didn’t know how to delegate or outsource. i didn’t trust people to take care of me or meet my needs. & i was scared that if they did, they’d take advantage of me…manipulate or abuse me like i was so used to in relationships.
(…making it nearly impossible for my adult self to receiveee)
i was living in survival, operating from fight or flight
& although i was empowered on the outside, i was crying for more on the i n s i d e
i wanted more…but i didn’t know how to hold m o r e
i am so grateful for the last 5 years - you have prepared me for the outrageously abundant orga$mic one that’s to come
i am holding more than ever before
& i feel…weightless (goosepimples & butterflies as i write this)
let this be your permission slip to believe in your...
happy 11th birthday to my first born son
watch the celebration HERE
i remember the day i brought you home from the place next to Smithhaven Mall on 347
i was out shopping with Abby & your first dad (my eldest niece + first boyfriend)
we went in just to show her the puppies & have an adventure but you were so chocolatey & cute…i couldn’t stand it!!!
you were so…soft & loving & gentle…something i definitely didn’t embody at the time…but really needed
i couldn’t leave you behind, not even for a second, so i bought you then & there
there i was…a 19 year old (almost) single mom
all of us went to visit papa (my dad) at work which was nearby
i wanted to use Abby as a buffer so i wouldn’t get yelled at for bringing you home without asking
my dads secretary was THRILLED & really talked him into the situation (we were lucky)
& that was that…
you hung out in my purse for as long as you could...
bringing d i v i n i t y down into the d a i l y
how much can you
honor, respect & make sacred
building the 2022 vision in my heart x womb…before any action is taken
mm mm mmmmmmmm
…can’t wait to share what i’m cooking
words in reel from A.F
i will always intimidate you... unitl you look in the mirror ... & accept your own Pu$$y Vegenius & Power
Read client message HERE
i’ve had a number of you message me lately & tell me how intimidated by me you are
what I want to remind you…
is that the intimidation you feel…
is really about your own power
the nerves you feel…the high sensations in your body…the arousal & pull…inside of you…
is not to M E
it is to Y O U
your Highest Expression is calling…
i’m just the lucky one who gets to mirror your own magic
we are all guiding each other home. it’s not a cliche. it’s a Truth.
i am here standing for your bigness…your embodiment…& your freedom
i will always intimidate you…until you look in the mirror…& accept your own Pussy Vagenius & Power
until then…you will think i am different than you…
& your ego will make excuses about why it’s not...
two truths can exist at the same time
the most common 2021 reflection i’ve heard was ‘this was the best & worst year’
in the midst of all the chaos…
i, just like you, feel the luckiest
the energy felt heavy these last few weeks
with lots of things coming to a head…the white head popped…the bomb went off & there’s debris everywhere (you too?)
& i still feel the luckiest
what’s grounded me the most is remembering that i am the creator…
everything before me for my Highest Good…& theirs
we are moving in a direction that requires us to be clear, conscious, sovereign & in our choice now more than ever - can you feel it?
infinite gratitude for the rupture & rapture cycle
…teaching, stretching, expanding, opening…
i surrender to you
pictured: me in the midst of holiday relational chaos…smiling to the ethers…full of sister goddess love & client vulva presents thank you for...
before i actually met paul, i really wanted to believe there was a man that could hold all of me
but i wasn’t totally convinced
i wasn’t sure where to place myself for him to find me
you know, feminine energetics & all ;)
where the f am i gonna meet a man that is both mission driven & heart centered, is equally as boujee as he is spiritual, has done his fair share of ego work, celebrates a sexually liberated woman & isn’t threatened by his partner’s power?
as unusual as it sounds
i’ve had some of the BEST luck on dating apps!
my mentor would always tell me to create a course on “how to do online dating” bc i usually log in, find a fucking gem & peace out
the men i’ve dated in Denver have become some of the best male friends i’ve ever had
…one of them even became my video editor :)
it’s a combination of where you’re at energetically in your search + how you show up AND where you...