do you pause for the transitions of your life?

i led a pleasure practice last IN THE FLESH weekend that was incredibly s l o w

and as we started to give love & movement to the neck, i started cueing everyone to p a u s e

..at every transition
one movement
p a u s e
one movement
p a u s e

‘be here in the transition’

letting go of the past..
trusting the future..
feeling the now

in these moments
> of transition & pause
> death, decay & downtime

there is a deepening of the soul

it’s amazing what you don’t miss
when you slow down
stay still
& allow yourself to listen

to hear & feel all the subtleties
…rich with information, truth & beauty

that usually go missed
in the (loco)motion

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paul & i are separating to take space. & i’m in the process of moving out.
it’s been hard. painful. full of grief & loss.
& even though we’re not saying goodbye, we are saying goodbye to this version of us.
with that, i’ve found myself asking what to do with all of the visions of life together. where do they go? what do you do with them? so many plans, so many hopes suddenly changed, with the potential for gone.
as i sat in my reality last week, i found myself pouring tears of immense joy & gratitude.
broken open like nothing but the loss - or pause - of a deep love can do.
the ‘it hurts so good’ piece. the ‘thank you so much for this fucking pain’.
the realization of the necessity of it, & the beauty + gift of its presence has been monumental.
i’m in a huge transition. from maiden to mother. the initiation has begun. & it feels, vulnerable. it’s been alive for the last few months, but illuminated with...

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"there is some strange intimacy between grief & aliveness. some sacred exchange between what seems unbearable & what is most exquisitely alive" 

- Francis Weller

the other day in IN THE FLESH we were chatting about how ‘over’ we are with the feminine rising & Goddess work

not the teachings..or the Goddess herself

but the fluff we see on social media - the shiny, glittery, curated, performed - feminine expression

it’s fabricated, covered in interpretation

while a beautiful expression,
not Her in her wholeness

it’s funny…

most of you will never know what it looks or feels like on the inside of my containers

many of you only see the bright, gold, attractive, happy version of me today

..with the flashy things, the biz, the joy, the freedom, etc.

but the ALIVE, magnetic woman i am

comes from facing my darkness, my shadows & my grief…every single day

moment to moment
opening to the flow
that is life itself

the Goddess arrives when i feel...

‘the space you hold is like nothing i’ve felt before.
‘i’ve never felt this safe.
‘i haven’t been able to tell anyone this.
‘i don’t feel any judgement with you.

..the biggest reflection i receive from my clients..

(1) my ‘real, raw, & vulnerable’ nature
(2) my authenticity & power
(3) the power of the space i hold

let’s chat (3)

this is a skill i have worked on for *years*

i wouldn’t be able to help facilitate the magnitude of change i can today without:

..spending 10 hour days in Spiritual Psychology school
..refining my skills through trainings, mentorship’s, masterminds & 1:1 work
..practicing my precision & accuracy w/ clients over the last 10 yrs in the coaching industry
..being COACHABLE!

the quality of the space you are being held in *MATTERS* - you’ve felt that right?

safe, consent based, non-judgmental spaces allow for profound transformation & shifts to occur.

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this is…intimate
this is…me

this is my real, raw emotional body

this is..the reality of my mornings this week

tears. joy. solo $ex. more tears. laughter. puppy cuddles. tears. love. solo $ex. tears.

but..this is where my HUMAN is

& i’m not the leader, friend, partner, guide that’ll pocket her emotions

or fake it.

which leaves me 2 options, (1) don’t show up, or (2) show up messy.

i choose (2).

(i don’t do the ‘businesses or leaders needing to be a certain way’)

i chose the bless in the mess.
& the medicine of this darkness.

i also find beauty & freedom in these places. so i like to share them. i trust you do/will too.

when i was creating HUMAM, i shared my trepidation about a container on grief

‘i don’t want it to be so heavy no one joins’

my OBM goes, ‘it’s not heavy it’s deep’

mmm das why i love & pay you

truthfully…personally..

i just want *real & raw* right now

IN THE...

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my cries grew louder as i sat in the grief

my words moving from hurt to 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩

…pouring 𝙞𝙩 out through my pen

finding
my gratitude for this moment.
this season.
this chapter.

to remind me what love is.

knowing
there is none..without grief.

𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥.

..i scribble.

so painful.
so livening.

so wickedly yummy.
full of love.

so much joy.
so much grief.

all,
at the same time.

𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐍

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adaptability.

adaptability

is one of our greatest tools

how can we BE, embody, practice - 

without needing certain conditions?

how can we remain grounded & centered, in our being, heart & pu$$y - despite the circumstances of our life & world?

...to dance for your morning practice

no matter who's home & watching

...to show up for your writing practice

even when suing a random piece of paper 'cause you forgot your fav journal

...to move your body in new ways & discover fresh pleasure pathways

after a big injury

adaptability. 

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to remember your wholeness & what it means to be alive

themes: humanness, taking our time, the mother, grief, & as always…somatics

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to find your freedom in the midst of pain, grief, & big change - that’s money.

i think i’ll refer back to this chapter as the Great Softening.

i love my path.
i love the medicine of my journey.
i love how the obstacle is always the way.

i love how every time i think ‘i can’t do it’ or ‘i won’t make it’ - i end up remembering my humanness.

& in there..is every reminder i ever need.

because in my humanness - in my very own body - there ‘I AM’

…there it all is…

*God lives in the b o d y*

in our fleshy, 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐍 parts.

fucking yum.

𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐍
…a deliciously slow 6 month container…

to remember your wholeness & what it means to be alive

*is coming this week*

[shown: me dancing with my IN THE FLESH Pu$$y Priestesses for Mystery School. i brag the potency of this weekend & the medicine of my injury for the whole container. we will never rehave these moments. so special.]

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i always include TEAM JUICE in the conversation in workshop & retreat space.

asking them for their insights & learnings..reflections & voice

& every time i do, i hear a voice say “but don’t you think the ones paying want all of the space for themselves & don’t want to share the time”

for some odd reason (the patriarchy) even though it’s a practiced choice, it’s a juncture i pause at..every time..

to go against the grain…to give up the metrics & greed..to act & choose with the energy of the mother..to be so different from what the mainstream society voice says, or at least the one i heard growing up & now hear in my head

i still fear the energy of the mother sometimes. because it’s so big, so beautiful, so pure, so dense, so full, so rich, so much care. so unconditional. so giving. so willing to give her last.

so attuned.

so..nothing ‘to fear but fear itself.’

“of course. of course, they, we, i...