I was watching my life like I would a movie…

from the audience,
rather than from the character’s perspective.

I didn’t even know something was off until I was in a reiki session & she said,

“Look down & see your feet moving.”

At that point, I was already so outside my body that I was seeing things from a bird’s eye view, never truly experiencing life from my own two eyes.

My mind was BUSY.

I was always up inside my head; thinking constantly, overanalyzing, worried about other people & what they thought about me.

I had unexplainable back & hip pain. I’d wake up in the middle of the night unable to take deep breaths.

My hips were always filled with tightness & tension. And when I had s3x, they would lock up on me.

Somatics, reclaiming my s3xuality, & healing my relationship to my inner masculine x feminine,

changed the way I showed up in the world, my relationships, my business, & most importantly - the way I feel in my body....

Permission to get dirty
Permission to leave your hair wild
Permission to get out in the rain
Permission to take your shoes off
Permission to make horrific mistakes
Permission to royally fuck up
Permission to say what you’re gonna get burned for
Permission to be overly confident
Permission to take up more space than what’s comfortable
Permission to unclench your jaw
Permission to speak what’s really on your mind
Permission to unleash your s e x
Permission to offend others with your certainty
Permission to make the best choice for you, even when it startles others

Permission to give yourSelf permission

Permission to let go

*Wake up*

Your mess is the gift

#MessyIsTheNewPerfect

If we want our divine masculine to provide for us even more, & deliver more of everything we want/ need/ desire, then we better 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘂𝗿𝗲 𝗳𝘂𝗹𝗹𝘆.

If we don’t suck up all of his already rich, delectable fruits x juices that show up in our lives, and participate with every inch of skin on our supple, pleasure ready bodies, 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙛𝙪𝙣 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙬𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙮 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝?

Our inner masculine wants our inner fem to enjoy, soak up, & revel in all of the goodness that’s both here & on its way to us.

He wants us to be abundant & wealthy.

He wants us to live a turned on life filled with the tastiest of experiences & earth shattering, orgasmic pleasure.

He wants to see our body shiver & tremble with delight as he offers even the slightest touch.

He wants to show us who cash king really is.

He’s got it for us.

With 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐨 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐮𝐬.

But,

We’ve got to feel our pleasure fully.

Because it’s just as much for us,
as it is for those...

It’s in everything

Even anger

Anger x rage are some of the more challenging emotions I see humans, especially womxn, having a hard time accessing & expressing in somatics

It often holds deep roots of shame,

threaded with societal fear

“Anger is wrong”
“If I have anger, I’m a bad person.”
“If I express it, I’ll be too dangerous.”
“If I feel it, I’m not as spiritual as I thought I was.”
“I’m not as far along on my journey.”
“I’ll never come out of it.”
“It’s not feminine.”
“What will others think?”

It’s easy to feel rage & make up a story

To make it mean something about our Self

Instead of allowing it run to through, self judgement creeps in

Anger is one of my favorite emotions to play with

It’s always been easily accessible for me...

However,

it wasn’t something that awakened my turn on & magnetism like it is now

It didn’t flow...

Re: Wanting your loved ones to grow with you...Remember who & what you’re saying ‘yes’ to

I’m always reminded of how much our life is meant to be filled with pleasure when I leave the states.

xx how hard we make things

xx how much we like things

xx how much importance we place on things

So many...things

It always feels a little contractive to come back to a society that says ‘live to work’ instead of ‘work to live’

What helps you stay out of the madness?

Let me know in the comments

One of my top practices is to spend 2x the amount of hours I work, in pleasure

I learned this from a mentor!

We don’t need to be spending our internal & external energy in the pressure to DO

We think achieving relief is about doing the things, but we’re just meeting the problem with the same energy we’ve created it in

In order to receive, we have to have the space to do so!

https://www.instagram.com/p/CNYIkUXJR3e/ 

I bought myself a gold diamond ring for my 29th birthday last year

But it took me 2.5 years of investing nearly every dollar I made in my biz, back into more education, team, personal healing, mentors & guides...

to realize that I could actually buy myself something for just p l e a s u r e

For ‘just’ happiness

Spending ‘that much’ on a piece of jewelry for myself was something I had never done

A diamond?

That felt B I G

5 months later,
I bought myself a second gold diamond

A much bigger one

On my drive home from the jeweler, I realized that although I had been traveling every month across the states, all my travels had been for education & healing

I sublet my apartment & booked a two month trip to Costa Rica a few weeks later

These were barriers I needed to break within my own consciousness around what was possible to create

My investments for so long were only on things that made me ‘more qualified’ & ‘more healed’

Now, I...

Tips for putting yourself first!

*Womb Room is open!* Running a business & being a bad b*tch requires MORE Self time, not less.

On a 1:1 client call last week, we did a somatic process to dissolve the ‘guilt for not being productive enough’.

Thing is…

being a Productivity Prowess (a module in Blissness x Pleasure) doesn’t come from doing more.

It comes from B E I NG in the moment.

BEING when we’re in the doing AND the being.

Present, quality, intimate Self time supports our overall vision & mission.

We can listen, hear, see, feel, & Know.

If you’re a coach, teacher, healer, guide looking for a safe haven to empty out & reconnect with Self through creative energy in community…

The next season of *The Womb Room* is OPEN for enrollment!

Under every new x full moon, we come together to:

take off all hats, let everything go, get into our bodies x hearts, & rekindle our juicy turn on.

Find out more or sign up here!

At the start of my Costa trip, I was so self conscious about walking around in a cheeky kini

“You’re a sexologist, you shouldn’t feel this way”

When I started at Soltara, it was an intimate space

w/ humans that came for healing

I was judging myself for only bringing cheeky kinis

“Why’d you do this?”

”You can’t wear those w/ these people”

”We’re here for HEALING”

”You can’t even TALK about s3x here & you’re gonna wear THOSE?”

For the first few days, I covered myself every time I got up

Less & less, I stopped covering

ppl asked what I did, & I hesitantly said I was a Somatic Sexologist

More & more, I said it louder

At one meal, after explaining my work & the work I do with the Erotic Blueprints

I had someone say,

“Oh, so you turn women into FREAKS”

Like syrup on your weekend waffles

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