When he’s touching your body
& it feels really good,
but you can’t get out of your head
because you want it a little bit slower,
a little more sensual,
-maybe even a nibble right on that spot you like-
…but you don’t say it
because you don’t wanna ‘๐ง๐ช๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ข๐ค๐ค๐’
**you’re leaving ๐ฒ๐ฐ๐๐๐ฎ๐๐ on the table**
(And believe you, he wants that)
When you’re on that enrollment call with a potential soul client
& you feel her fear-based blocks come up,
but you don’t say the thing your naughty intuition is screaming at you to shout
because you don’t want to ‘๐ญ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ง ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐จ๐๐’
**you’re leaving ๐ฆ๐จ๐ง๐๐ฒ on the table**
(And believe you, that’s why she’ll pay you)
That thing you really want to say,
is the thing that’ll really turn them ON!
It’s your magic sauce that sets you apart from...
The other part of this story has been the overall transformation of my physical body from the time I started somatic work until now
I said I worked my whole life for this body
& I did
But a deepest learning, was the ๐ฅ๐๐ฎ๐จ๐๐๐๐ก ๐จ๐๐๐๐ฉ๐จ that occurred when the other layers of mySelf were nurtured x tended to
When I look in the mirror now
I see the body I always wanted
But it didn’t come from muscling or forcing
my way into it, like my really familiar previous course
It came from bringing the dark parts of my subconscious, into the light
I had to first DECIDE I was done with the struggle & the fight
I needed to put down my weapons
& then get my body onboard
I was
& am a warrior
But she’s no longer the only active part
I brought my soft, sweet, tender feminine back online
Through hours x hours of being with her
**Understanding, acceptance, forgiveness, loving, redefining**
Feeling
Feeling
Feeling
And more
Feeling
Our relationship has shifted & deepened over...
Let’s face it, SOMATICS is the new black
& there’s a big reason why
It’s real, it’s fast, it’s deep
& it ๐๐ผ๐ฟ๐ธ๐
But I want to tell you that nothing will ๐๐ซ๐๐ง fix or heal you or keep hard things from happening
Not just because you’re ๐ข๐ง๐ก๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐ก๐จ๐ฅ๐
But bc life will ๐๐ก๐ฌ๐๐ฎ๐จ continue to happen
Somatic experiencing & embodiment, for myself & clients, has transformed the way we sit in our beingness, & in turn, ๐ฑ๐ผ life
While magic it is, we’re still the ๐ข๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐จ
Magic requires belief, commitment, devotion, love, trust, surrender & feeling
It also requires a ๐ก๐๐๐ฅ ๐ค๐ ๐๐๐๐ฉ๐
This kind of wizardry does not depend on what is seen
It depends on blind faith
๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ข๐ญ๐ก to the eye,
but ๐ฏ๐ถ๐ด ๐๐ฟ๐๐๐ต to the soul
Lately, I’ve seen a lot of womxn walk up to the plate, & then run the other direction
& truthfully, doing big...
The pressure of not fulfilling my potential & soul’s mission was c r i p p l i n g me, everyday.
Not because I didn’t believe in myself or know I was ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ meant to do big things,
but because the FEELING of living this big life
**having the passionate, epic love I dreamed of, traveling the world, making buckets of money, & helping womxn do the same**
was a ๐๐๐ซ ๐๐๐ซ away ‘felt sense’.
It was true in my mind,
but definitely not true in my body.
Honestly, I was really fucking confused.
I did everything I was told to do. And when those didn’t work, I found alternatives that worked better.
So why this ๐ก๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ง๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ?
All the work I was doing, while it really did help, still wasn’t getting deep enough into my ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐๐๐จ๐ง๐ฌ๐๐ข๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ.
...which lives in the BODY.
Cycles repeated, certain behaviors remained, an unconscious sense of ๐ฏ๐ฟ๐ผ๐ธ๐ฒ๐ป๐ป๐ฒ๐๐ spewed out when no one was...
(You haven’t heard this version x ending)
The hardest thing I ever worked for in my life was this body.
I entered the coaching space 10 years ago @ 19.
I thought I did it because it was ‘๐๐ค๐ค๐ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช’ & I was super passionate about health x fitness.
But deep down, I always knew it was a career built on a shaky sense of worthiness - defined by my external beauty & the ‘success’ the world told me to have - & a strive for absolute perfection.
I was 21 when I got diagnosed with ๐๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ป๐ฎ๐น ๐ณ๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐ด๐๐ฒ from years of overtraining & extreme dieting.
I thought being raw vegan was the best way to do food. So I stopped listening to my body & followed the instructions.
I healed from that.
But 23, I started competing.
I lost all of my holistic practices & gained the bro diet.
I used PED’s, adderall, & drugs to support myself.
I had no cycle, gut issues, eating disorders & a lot of self hatred.
But I did really well in...
Say something about my nipples. I dare you.
I get a lot of questions from women about unwanted attention from men.
Like:
‘I want to be sexually liberated.
‘I want to stand in my power.
‘But men scare me.
‘I feel unsafe around them.
I GET YOU.
I felt unsafe in my sexual body most of my life.
I’m gonna say 2 really edgy things:
Ready?
1 Somewhere inside of you, prob deep in your subconscious, you ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ it. In fact, dare I say, you ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐ it.
2 We can’t wait for men to respect us to stand in our erotic freedom.
That shit is ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐.
Before panties bunch, I’m not talking about violent sexual attacks, harassment, & abuse.
What I’m highlighting is the deep rooted desire of our feminine hearts for male attention & gaze.
That. Is. Beautiful.
Modern day feminism has smashed on us for even wanting that, telling us to
need no man.
Bleh....
To tell it like it is…
Nothing turns a ๐๐ผ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ถ๐ด๐ป womxn on more, than an honoring of her boundaries, space, & Self
When I get that…
“Hey babe, call me when you have a sec” text
over a random call in the middle of my workday
I’m ๐๐ฃ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ฉ๐ก๐ฎ turned on.
I feel respected, my time is valued & he gets the importance of my work flow.
I don’t know when boundaries became such a downer…
(it’s probably when ๐ฐ๐ผ๐ป๐๐ฒ๐ป๐ got tossed out the window)
but I want to remind you that they’re actually the complete opposite.
Boundaries are a tool to be used for:
***greater intimacy, deeper love & hotter sex***
When someone asks you permission to touch your p*ssy, tell me again how ๐๐ฒ๐ it makes you
(that’s what I thought)
Q: Why would any other boundary be different?
These sacred agreements — to be made in & out of the bedroom...
While I used to really love the idea of boundaries, because they’re incredibly self serving (can you tell I’m a virgo?), I really only loved just that…
the IDEA
The rebel inside of me
loved to play with fire
& loved the drama of:
xx having them & not having them
xx having them & having them be broken
xx having them, letting them be broken & then playing like a pig in shit when the shit storm came
When I dismantled these internal systems,
Awakened these lost parts of mySelf
& found my own agency,
Boundaries became a SPORT.
xx How can I use boundaries to have better relationships?
xx How can I use boundaries to bring more erotic energy in?
I shifted from looking at boundary setting as:
setting boundaries with others
TO
setting boundaries with the Self in RELATION to others
Standing in your Truth isn’t just about Knowing who you are & speaking up.
It’s about the...
You’re doing too much.
If the ๐ข๐ง๐ง๐๐ซ ๐๐ซ๐ข๐ญ๐ข๐ keeps saying, “you’re not doing enough” & it feels like you can never get ahead,
it’s probably ๐น๐ฒ๐๐ about what you’re ๐๐ค๐๐ฃ๐ & ๐บ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ about there being **too much on your plate**, with way too high of an ๐๐ญ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฃ to do it ALL.
The way I see it…
The problem is not in how many pieces of the puzzle.
The problem is in how many ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ you’re trying to complete at the ๐จ๐๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐.
(without any support, team, partners in crime)
Generally, unless it’s one of those bitch ass iridescent puzzles, you can fairly simply complete a 200, 500, or 1000 piece puzzle.
The more pieces, the longer it’ll take.
But, you get it done.
Whereas, 5 puzzles by yourself is probably gonna be a hot mess.
My fellow ๐ผ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ต๐ถ๐ฒ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด womxn who are used to basing their worth off of accomplishments & ‘doing-ness’, remember...
The game of manifestation
is a game of devotion
If we’re walking around
saying we want one thing
But settling for the next best thing
that comes through our door
๐ฏ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐?
Expansion & next level Becoming
requires trust in what will be yours
Because inside of you
« It’s ๐ฎ๐น๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ yours »
Just like its already yours
out there in the ๐ฆ๐ช๐๐ฃ๐ฉ๐ช๐ข
This is how I’ve created the life I have now
...through endless devotion to the next level, the ultimate vision - without second guessing or letting the fear take over
This is not the time for wishy washy decisions
It’s a time to commit to your vision
to the gifts you were given
So, come into trust
& let down the ego’s fuss
If you want it
then decide already
And be courageous enough
to settle for ๐ง๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ less
And when the doubt creeps in
(Because it will)
Remember you were...
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