a letter to my sweet right side…

you have held me for so long.

through the hardest & softest of times.

working so hard to stay alert, protect & keep safe.

as this chapter closes, & we start a new one together, know that the rest of us can hold you.

and…

we don’t have to go any faster than our slowest parts.

(thank you for that, Jaiya)

i’ll meet a new version of my body today.

Julianne 3.0

i’m grateful to you, 2.0

…we’ve done a lot of crazy shit together.

i can’t wait to see where we go & what we create next.

i love you, body.

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it feels like a really strong layer of protection is being taken off with this knee surgery.

not by choice, but by chance.

and, i know i’m ready because the path has presented itself.

my Highest Goddess led me here.

i’m getting the opportunity to rewrite the story with movement & fitness.

…to go on a new, intimate journey with my body.

it’s an honor.

and, i’ve been so fucking scared to let go.

to give this up.
to release this part of me.
this part that has created such beautiful protection.

what if it doesn’t come back?
what if it looks different?

(oh, but what if it does?…different x evolved)

this layer, off…

feels vulnerable.

this layer, off…

(also) brings excitement.

for the new.
for the next.

for the wiser, softer me.

both exist.
both realities alive in my body.

i meet myself, here.

i meet the grief.
i meet the sorrow.
i meet the pain.
i meet the fear.

i meet myself, here.

i be..with my humanness.

over..& over..again.

trusting my...

our role as a coach + guide, is to find where somebody is hiding & protecting…to then support them in opening to what’s underneath

…to feel what’s there, & bring deep approval…

it’s our role to invite them into the places that hold great charge, the areas that house trapped energy

…so they can use it to harness their full power & creations into this world…

follow what’s alive

gently..lovingly..

bring them to the places they don’t want to go.

see them there.
approve of them.
love them deeply.

& watch the energy transmute.

see before your very eyes,
something..someone…made new

in 4 short weeks…i’ll be hosting a *Permission For Pleasure* virtual event, kicking off the relaunch of my 8 module signature program called Awaken Your Divine Feminine - stay tuned

reflecting on the groups biggest takeaways from the Erotic Blueprint Workshop yesterday with @hey_birdie_co at @pachahouse_denver

…really had me feeling into…

*Pleasure as the Rebellion*

the biggest obstacles i hear to pleasure..are usually time & distractions

but as *real* as they are…they also, are not

…the thought that doing is more important than being…

…the shoulds & shouldnts that call our attention away from the present moment…

…the obsession with having everything finished, organized, cleaned - ‘perrrrfect’…

…this idea that there is not enough time or energy for pleasure…

…the push for ‘more more more’ at the COST of our earth & our people…

are just narratives from the patriarchal system we’ve lived in for centuries

*it is ENGRAINED in us*

& they loveeeeeeeeeee it for them

when we our disconnected from our bodies & pleasure…

...

the magic of unconditional love & devotional energy - results always follow

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photoshoots are one of my favorite places for evidence that…

i can do less, be more, & still have a large x powerful effect

that my beauty & radiance just *is*…without having to over perform or over pose

…that my mere existence is *enough*

after years spent in the fitness industry & diet culture, working with hundreds of women with eating disorders & body dysmorphia (myself included)— BEing this way is a revolt

it is a stand for w o m a n

…a stand against media, marketing & messages - that say we must clean our nails, comb our hair, shave our body & hide our pores

after every retreat & in person event, i am so extra FULL of love for WOMAN

..because for those few sacred days spent together, there was enough safety to dissolve guards & walls to love…

allowing me/her to really see + love + receive her/me, in all her blemishes & imperfections…

*in awe of the creation before me*

every *body* so unique, brilliant...

i brag my little love munchkin & our special mama-son bond

i brag my man cared for the weenies while i was away leading IN THE FLESH Mystery School

….& he even walked them in the *stroller* (swipe for proof!)

i brag i’m scheduled for ACL surgery in 2 weeks & i’m handling it like a graceful warrior goddess‍

i brag my & set the intention for booty gains during recovery

i brag my stable, abundant business & the ability to pay this unexpected expense out of pocket in full

i brag Mystery School students & their support in shifting weekends so i can take care of my knee

i brag Mystery School students (literally all fucking day you pu$$y priestess rock$tars) handling the first in-person retreat like the heal[h]ers they *are*

….touching body’s & vulvas for the first time in this way magic magic magic mirrors

i brag scheduling a special *bonus call* with my 1:1s to build sisterhood, create ritual & love on each other

i brag my...

pinching myself!! the first *in person* IN THE FLESH Mystery School event was beyond words. initiating these women into the world of somatic sexology & quantum bodywork was my own kind of initiation.

and at the same time it felt so easy, natural..& like i had been doing it for lifetimes.

their reflections that ‘this work is going to change the world’ bursts my flipping heart open. everything changed for me when i landed in this work & world.

& i know it’s changing everything for them..i’m watching them transform before my very eyes, in every single segment.

it’s so simple, yet so in depth..& so profound.

feeling into the ripple effect this is having in the world makes me feel so hopeful. leaders create leaders. & women together are so fucking unstoppable.

honored to be a guide for these pu$$y priestesses. thank goddess for bringing us back together in this lifetime - we have danced in the sun so many times before ‍

if you feel the...

yesterday after a fun photoshoot with the best in town @jamesreimanphoto (gold, snow, fur - can’t wait to show you the juice)

@therealsimplyoli & i chatted about how much we’ve changed over the last year + how different our lives feel..

calm
grounded
quiet

…were my reflections

it feels…different…

i’m making more money, attracting the most badass, aligned clients‍, running a 10 month Somatic Sexology Mystery School + 6figure coaching clients, doing less & less & less in my biz, traveling more , investing more

..loving more
..holding WAY more

the ‘different’ i feel..is from not having MY actual hands in all of the active, ongoing projects

or showcasing it to the world in ways i’m used to

i’m a highly creative, innovative, MG, enneagram 7, virgo sun with a rising libra & about 4 planets in leo

— my pu$$Y vageniussss be big (but not any bigger than yours ) who has a lotta energy + spits out ideas...

running a multi6fig biz (& on the way to your dillion’s & zillions) doesn’t mean you have to be serious all the time.

…just like being a leader doesn’t mean you have to drop your $exy

on a mastermind call this morning i shared…

“i am the leader & the damsel’

mmm..yes.

i am not a woman of ‘this or that’

…& neither are you.

the voice inside your head..that tells you to choose..between..

loud or loved
messy or successful
independent or cared for
rich bitch or friendless

is lying.

& it’s not your voice.

when you hear it, that’s when you call on your tools (plea$ure x pu$$y)

+ your sisters.

that is your medicine.
that is your truth.
that is your essence.

…you are so profound.

don’t forget it