Itโ€™s ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™ž๐™š๐™ฃ๐™ฉ ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™จ๐™™๐™ค๐™ข knocking at my door, everyday

Feb 26, 2021

I woke up yesterday with my bleed right on time, to the day. The same 29 day cycle as the months before.

Natural bloating, slight cramps, a little bit of fatigue, and a strong pull to go inward.

 

Hello, inner winter

 

After struggling with hormonal imbalances from birth control & amenorrhea (period loss) from years of disordered eating, overtraining, & adrenal fatigue…

 

having a period, let alone, an ๐™š๐™–๐™จ๐™ฎ, predictable, fairly symptom-free one, wasn’t something I initially believed in.

 

But over the years, as I’ve come more & more home to my body & my being,

 

I’ve learned to ๐—ฏ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฐ๐—ฒ ๐—บ๐˜† ๐˜€๐˜†๐˜€๐˜๐—ฒ๐—บ & ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ฝ๐—ผ๐˜„๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—ผ๐—ณ ๐—บ๐˜† ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ป๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐˜€๐—ผ๐—ป๐˜€ to work WITH my hormones in a super advantageous way.

 

My cycle used to be something I ignored & didn’t care much about.

 

It was…. ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฃ๐™ค๐™ฎ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ.

 

Know what I mean?

 

Now, it’s something that’s become an integral part to my:

๐—ฏ๐—ฒ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด-๐—ป๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€,...

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Healing happens when we experience something different

Feb 26, 2021

 

Maintaining the persona of ‘๐œ๐จ๐จ๐ฅ, ๐œ๐š๐ฅ๐ฆ, ๐œ๐จ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ž๐œ๐ญ๐ž๐’ womxn in front of the other in hard conversations limits the availability for intimacy in the moment

 

For a long time,

I wasn’t even aware I did this

 

Or that there was another way of relating because this pattern of attachment was developed so early on in childhood…like all of ours did

 

I’ve been working with this part of myself, specifically ๐˜„๐—ต๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ถ๐˜ ๐—น๐—ถ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐˜€ ๐—ถ๐—ป ๐—บ๐˜† ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐—ฑ๐˜†, these last couple weeks, as I’m in launch mode for my 1:1 coaching

 

(working with attachment styles in relation to business is super helpful)

 

This dance between a deep desire to be seen, & hiding in my room because the outside world isn’t safe, is a young young part of me that lives under my right armpit

 

She’s familiar

I know her

 

And she gets scared when big things are happening

 

I lifted my right arm to expose this part of my body in front of my therapist...

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When we feel resistance Itโ€™s because ๐˜๐˜„๐—ผ ๐—ฝ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜๐˜€ ๐—ผ๐—ณ ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—น๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐˜€ ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—ผ๐—ฑ๐—ฑ๐˜€

Feb 26, 2021

Feeling ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐—ถ๐˜€๐˜๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฐ๐—ฒ to structure & form

Is less about the ๐’”๐’•๐’“๐’–๐’„๐’•๐’–๐’“๐’† & ๐’‡๐’๐’“๐’Ž

 

And more about

The integration

With the rest

of Who You Are

 

< a pleasure seeking erotic goddess >

 

When things, especially our business,

Feel hard & draining

 

Ask yourself:

Where are you not allowing yourself the full range of your expression?

 

When we feel resistance

It’s because ๐˜๐˜„๐—ผ ๐—ฝ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜๐˜€ ๐—ผ๐—ณ ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—น๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐˜€ ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—ผ๐—ฑ๐—ฑ๐˜€

 

The integration

-a unification of the two-

 

And Recognizing them as one in the same

 

Allows us to be All of it at once

And None of it at the same time

 

 

If you sometimes feel like a pleasure, flowy, junkie who just can’t get anything done…

 

It’s probably because you’re not allowing yourself to have pleasure be PART OF your life

 

 

We live in a world that says

๐ง๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ mix biz with pleasure

 

 

But I disagree :)

 

And ever since dismantling that program,

and...

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FROM 5K MONTHS TO MULTIPLE 6 FIGURE YEARS

Feb 26, 2021

I moved to Denver less than 3 years ago with no paying clients, thousands in CC debt, no car, 2 dogs & a deal with my brother to meal prep in exchange for rent because I didn’t have anything else.

I was working hard to move my successful in-person biz online, but my personal life kept getting in the way.

 

I ended an extremely abusive relationship when I got here. But 2 weeks later found out I was pregnant.

 

For the couple years prior, the body dysmorphia & eating disorders I struggled with my whole life, got really bad from competing in the fitness industry.

 

I was also quietly fighting substance abuse & a pattern of partners that ended with court orders of protection. Yes, more than 2.

 

It wasn’t pretty.

 

But I was relentless on my pursuit for inner freedom, impact, purpose, wealth, success & epic love.

 

I always knew I was meant for more & that these parts of my journey were the roadmap to my success.

 

What...

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RE: That time my intimacy issue showed up in my biz

Feb 18, 2021

 

Okay, it was way more than ‘that one time’ ;)

  

But wowza, did I wish I knew the goldmine that was under there from the start…

 

The way we show up in the bedroom, is the way we show up in every other area of our lives.

 

As I’ve grown my biz into the multiple 6 figure range over the last 3 years, it has revealed to me, over & over, where I was either available, or ๐™ฃ๐™ค๐™ฉ available, for ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ž.

 

When I first started my biz (as a holistic health coach + boxing/yoga teacher 10 years ago), like many of our relationships start, it was ๐™จ๐™ช๐™ง๐™›๐™–๐™˜๐™š ๐™ก๐™š๐™ซ๐™š๐™ก.

 

There was more focus on the external, the image, the identity piece, the ‘am I really this?, ‘how can I be more of this?’ Kind of thing.

 

As the years went on,

my relationship to my biz changed.

 

Some moments were great. Filled with love, secure attachment & receiving.

 

Other years were, ๐—ป๐—ผ๐˜.

 

When I fell out with myself,

my biz...

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Clarity is cosmic currency

Feb 18, 2021

 

the more you strengthen your ‘no

the more ๐™ง๐™š๐™˜๐™š๐™ฅ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ซ๐™š you become

 

because your ‘๐™ฃ๐™ค

is really just your ‘๐™ฎ๐™š๐™จ

 

you’re a ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’ˆ๐’๐’†๐’•

constantly attracting

creating

& calling in

 

๐—ฐ๐—น๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ถ๐˜๐˜†

is ๐™˜๐™ค๐™จ๐™ข๐™ž๐™˜ ๐™˜๐™ช๐™ง๐™ง๐™š๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™ฎ

 

the yoniverse

doesn’t care what language you use

 

she cares

about the ๐ž๐ง๐ž๐ซ๐ ๐ž๐ญ๐ข๐œ๐ฌ

you hold

 

the more ๐™ฃ๐™ค๐™จ you have

the stronger your field gets

 

this makes you ๐ฆ๐š๐ ๐ง๐ž๐ญ๐ข๐œ as ever

 

and a really strong receiver

for your heart’s deepest desires

 

 

so

 

keep your awareness on ๐’š๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’‡๐’Š๐’†๐’๐’…

 

energetically hold ๐’š๐’๐’–๐’“ vision

embody ๐’š๐’๐’–๐’“ highest self

 

to crystalize your reality

 

 

let your no’s

be your roadmap

to the bigger

creation

at play

 

 

a deeper conversation on this subject with a breakdown to implement & optimize is on a brand new solocast on The Reclamation Project on iTunes / Spotify!

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Listening to our body will always teach us how to be & do life.

Feb 18, 2021

 

It’s always right there showing us, through its natural function, how to take what is already inside of us, out into the world.

Excretion

Secretion

Emoting

Child birth

Erection

Orgasm

Building muscle

These functions teach us to live in harmony with both the ecosystem within, & around us.

Examples:

Arousal: Under the Erotic Blueprint framework, I’m an Energetic Shapeshifter (links in bio to take the quiz). This means slow, anticipatory touch gets be hot, wet, & ready. Too much too fast usually makes me shut off & lose my turn on.

My body literally THRIVES on less is more.

For me, this is how I operate in biz x life. Less is more. The more I slow down & the more I stay present in my body, the more pleasure, wealth, success I create.

Orgasm: generally speaking - there’s quite the build up, climax, & come down. After a roller coaster like that, the body needs some stillness & rest.

Same in life. We have a launch, a big event in biz...

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Embodiment happens when we feel the pressure, and choose authenticity anyway

Feb 18, 2021

 

 

As we move

From a

๐‘ด๐’†

To a

๐–๐ž

Society

The healing

Goes from

๐€๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐ž

To

๐“๐จ๐ ๐ž๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ

It’s easy to know ourselves

in the comfort of our own space

But in community

There are edges

And THAT

is what we must press up against

for a new level of Self

What’s been helpful for you in getting into communal space after deep self work?

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How we walk around in our sex is a great tell for whats happening everywhere elseโ€ฆ

Feb 04, 2021

 

How we walk around in our sex

is a great tell

for whats happening everywhere else

Clenched, bracing

pulling in

up

holding

breathing in

breathing in

sipping

tightening up

This doesn’t feel good

anywhere in our body

Holding our sex in that way

to me, is like holding our breath in, to life

Constantly taking in

for other

rather than receiving

for self

They are different

One is in ego

and the other

in truth

To relax

to open

in our sex

is to relax

to open

to life

When we are bracing, clenching, holding

we are cutting off

from the flow of erotic creation

that wants to be unleashed

from within

As receivers,

we have to open the gates to allow

the more

This happens

when we

relax

let go

and let God

Through the openness

in our hearts,

of our sex,

and with our bodies

[codes from my last moon]

Applications for my 1:1 are open…

Your feminine wants more, wants bigger, wants better. She wants it harder & faster & deeper.

Let’s give her want she...

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Money Codes: Our Mentors Hold The Energetics To Expand Us Into Higher Vibrations

Feb 04, 2021

Money codes money codes money codes

Currency flows where we see

and where we don’t see

We pay what we pay

for our mentors

because we get more than the tangible

the visible

the things we see with our own

two human eyes

We up level from their frequency

we receive the energetics of the level they’re holding

For us

For the collective

 

For their vision

for the mission being birthed through them

Our mentors x coaches

are holding the energetics

the codes

the higher expanded vibrations

that allow us to rise up x step into

our BIGness

In the same way we hold specific codes for our clients

We are all leading each other home

magic everywhere around us

Take time for all the contact you can

stay in your body

breath in the present x the greatness of those around you

Keep holding the energy of your queendom

your domain

your space

Allow it to keep expanding

Claim your space

Claim it wide x big x deep

take up all of it

And allow those around you to rise with the...

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