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people often ask me about my choice to become a Holistic Health & Life Coach at the age of 19.

i wrote this journal entry when i was 22..during my second spiritual awakening.

i love finding it randomly throughout my life. typically in a move, during a big transition..which is right now.

it serves as a reminder of the Truth of Who I Am, the Goodness of my heart, the Innocence i hold, & the Purpose i walk with.

my soul has been on this journey many times before..

my body filled with ancient Wisdom..
my hands with Compassion..
my voice with Power..
my spirit with love..

i continue to be both swept up & taken down by the Great Mother.

riding her waves,
listening for her guidance,
standing with her courage,
serving out her raw truths.

i love how she takes me through the journey.
i love how she brings out my strength.
i love how she softens my edges.

it is in these times of change, i remember who i really am.

..as if it ever went anywhere
..as if it wasn’t...

in Carolyn Myss’s book Sacred Contracts, she talks about the 4 archetypes of survival…

Child
Victim
*Pro$titute*
Saboteur

she says,

‘The Pro$titute thrives most bountifully in subtle ways & in ordinary, everyday circumstances. It comes into play most clearly when our survival is threatened. Its core issue is how much you are willing to sell of yourself - your morals, your integrity, your intellect, your word, your body, or your soul - for the sake of physical security.

she goes on to say how The Pro$titute,

is actually the *Guardian of Faith*

‘The Pro$titute archetype also dramatically embodies & tests the power of faith. If you have faith, no one can buy you. You know that you can take care of yourself & also that the Divine is looking out for you. Without faith, however, you will eventually meet the price you cannot turn down.

…delicious truths

i’ve been sitting with this archetype & it’s expression in mySelf

it’s been a...

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i get a lot of Q’s about stepping into this work as a practitioner / guide..or just generally as a woman devoted to her personal freedom

most come with the concern - ‘but what will people think? especially my family?”

i feel what’s important to remember here..is that you’re on the 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙚𝙙𝙜𝙚

(one initiation of many)

if you’re looking for examples of what’s possible to create in your life..or how to stand as a $exually liberated woman who also does the biz thing..& the relationship thing..& the family thing…& gets respect along the way

it’s time we start looking withIN instead of OUTside

visionaries don’t look at what they have & create what’s possible out of it…

they FEEL what’s possible, see it as already done, & gather the resources needed to make the impossible possible

those visionaries will be called crazy, out of their mind, non-sensible, ungrounded in this reality

..maybe...

to accept the messiness of our human experience..is to melt into the l o v e & f r e e d o m inside our hearts & bodies.

one of the sweetest breakthrough moments with clients, is when they fall deeply in love with their story..their mess..& their perfect imperfection.

i love how Don Miguel Ruiz talks about this inside The Voice of Knowledge - highly recommend the read

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join us inside 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐍

pillars include: the mother archetype, rage + grief, slowness, somatics

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"Grief feels like it will never pass. this brings us great fear. we worry that this house of sorrow will be our final resting place, that our days will always be overcast, gray, & dulled by the sadness we carry, we have the sense that we are on a slow walk with no obvious direction. Fortunately, grief knows where to take us;

we are on a pilgrimage to soul. " -Francis Weller

the first time i touched my grief was my abortion.

i had just moved to denver & finally left the abusive relationship that would be the start of the rest of my life.

i thought it was gonna be a bright, shiny fresh beginning.

but a few weeks later, i found myself with a positive pregnancy test, threats from my ex, & messages that he had planned it.

i laid on my brothers couch for 2 weeks. in stillness. pain. fear. confusion. sorrow. shame. grief. & loss.

…thinking i would never get out of it.

as the weeks went by, it became the catalyst to feel my deepest childhood wounds.

everything started to...

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so..

i used my somatic practices, let my animal emote, felt the depths of the rejection & grief

& turned to pleasure to alchemize the pain into purpose

*I am my own mother.*

‘the mother’ archetype is one of the 4 pillars of HUMAN

at the end of our 6 months together, you will be your own mother

walking..slowly & intentionally…with both your HUMAN & Goddess

..to a destination that your BODY knows, is in fact, the journey itself.

also..EXCITING NEWS: i got a download this morning to add a special BONUS for HUMAN enrollees

my membership (the Womb Room) will start in September - & HUMAN enrollees will get the first 3 months FREE!!! eeeeee!!!!!

i can’t wait to share space with you <3

i am a woman who stands for freedom.

i am not a woman who will change her relationship to the truth for someone else.

i am a woman in deep devotion to herSelf & knowing.

i am not a woman who will be untruthful to protect someone else’s shame or shadow.

i am a woman who lives in alignment to the integrity of her soul.

i am not a woman who believes in self sacrifice for love or service.

i am a woman of depth, passion & purpose. i will always love myself first & choose the truth of my heart.

who are you? & who are you *not*?

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we explore:
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OPTION 2: if you’re ready to let go of the shoulds & shouldnts, release the burden of perfectionism to become grounded in the bliss of the journey instead of fixation on the outcome..

join us inside 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐍

you’ll walk away with the courage to trust your heart & Knowing above all else..while discovering your deepest acceptance.

to remember your wholeness & what it means to be alive…

is to walk with both your 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐍 &...

no love greater than the love of the mother spending time in the dirt, wind & trees today with my somatic mentor for our monthly immersion.

..planting eggs full of future intention, while digesting those of the past & present.

earlier this year when i was feeling into the kind of inner work + support i was being guided towards, i noticed it felt different than it had before.

it wasn’t about ‘more’

(obtaining more, making more, being more)

it was actually about ‘less’

my desire was to deepen.

to go inward
to mature into..mySelf
my body
& the ancient, cryptic wisdom inside of my womb

i’m so grateful my inner being led me here, to this guide, to this land, to this woman..inside of mySelf

30 so far has been different than i expected. but i’d also expect nothing less when you follow the nonsensical wisdom of your body there’s been pivots, course corrections & heartbreak. and…massive expansions, wealth creation, & legacy...

friday mood[z]

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my wonderful niece visited me from NY over her winter break..she saw me in this skirt at Apocalypse (thrift store) in Boulder & said, ‘you haveee to get that’  #onit

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