Blue Bikini Series Part 4

Mar 03, 2021

 

The other part of this story has been the overall transformation of my physical body from the time I started somatic work until now

I said I worked my whole life for this body

& I did

But a deepest learning, was the ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™จ๐™๐™ž๐™›๐™ฉ๐™จ that occurred when the other layers of mySelf were nurtured x tended to

When I look in the mirror now
I see the body I always wanted

But it didn’t come from muscling or forcing
my way into it, like my really familiar previous course

It came from bringing the dark parts of my subconscious, into the light

I had to first DECIDE I was done with the struggle & the fight

I needed to put down my weapons

& then get my body onboard

I was
& am a warrior

But she’s no longer the only active part

I brought my soft, sweet, tender feminine back online

Through hours x hours of being with her

**Understanding, acceptance, forgiveness, loving, redefining**

Feeling
Feeling
Feeling
And more
Feeling

Our relationship has shifted & deepened over...

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Blue Bikini Series Part 3

Mar 03, 2021

Let’s face it, SOMATICS is the new black

 

& there’s a big reason why

 

It’s real, it’s fast, it’s deep

 

& it ๐˜„๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ธ๐˜€

 

But I want to tell you that nothing will ๐™š๐™ซ๐™š๐™ง fix or heal you or keep hard things from happening

 

Not just because you’re ๐ข๐ง๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐ก๐จ๐ฅ๐ž

 

But bc life will ๐™–๐™ก๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฎ๐™จ continue to happen

 

Somatic experiencing & embodiment, for myself & clients, has transformed the way we sit in our beingness, & in turn, ๐—ฑ๐—ผ life

 

While magic it is, we’re still the ๐™ข๐™–๐™œ๐™ž๐™˜๐™ž๐™–๐™ฃ๐™จ

 

Magic requires belief, commitment, devotion, love, trust, surrender & feeling

 

It also requires a ๐™ก๐™š๐™–๐™ฅ ๐™ค๐™› ๐™›๐™–๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™

 

This kind of wizardry does not depend on what is seen

 

It depends on blind faith

 

๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐Ÿ๐š๐ข๐ญ๐ก to the eye,

but ๐—ฏ๐—ถ๐—ด ๐˜๐—ฟ๐˜‚๐˜๐—ต to the soul

 

Lately, I’ve seen a lot of womxn walk up to the plate, & then run the other direction

 

& truthfully, doing big...

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Blue Bikini Series Part 2

Mar 03, 2021

 

The pressure of not fulfilling my potential & soul’s mission was c r i p p l i n g me, everyday.

 

Not because I didn’t believe in myself or know I was ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ meant to do big things,

 

but because the FEELING of living this big life

**having the passionate, epic love I dreamed of, traveling the world, making buckets of money, & helping womxn do the same**

 

was a ๐Ÿ๐š๐ซ ๐Ÿ๐š๐ซ away ‘felt sense’.

 

It was true in my mind,

but definitely not true in my body.

 

Honestly, I was really fucking confused.

 

I did everything I was told to do. And when those didn’t work, I found alternatives that worked better.

 

So why this ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š๐™ง๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ก๐™–๐™˜๐™ ?

 

All the work I was doing, while it really did help, still wasn’t getting deep enough into my ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐›๐œ๐จ๐ง๐ฌ๐œ๐ข๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ.

 

...which lives in the BODY.

 

Cycles repeated, certain behaviors remained, an unconscious sense of ๐—ฏ๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐—ธ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ป๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€ spewed out when no one was...

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Blue Bikini Series Part 1

Mar 03, 2021

 

(You haven’t heard this version x ending)

The hardest thing I ever worked for in my life was this body.

I entered the coaching space 10 years ago @ 19.

I thought I did it because it was ‘๐™œ๐™ค๐™ค๐™™ ๐™›๐™ค๐™ง ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช’ & I was super passionate about health x fitness.

But deep down, I always knew it was a career built on a shaky sense of worthiness - defined by my external beauty & the ‘success’ the world told me to have - & a strive for absolute perfection.

I was 21 when I got diagnosed with ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ๐—ฑ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ฎ๐—น ๐—ณ๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ถ๐—ด๐˜‚๐—ฒ from years of overtraining & extreme dieting.

I thought being raw vegan was the best way to do food. So I stopped listening to my body & followed the instructions.

I healed from that.

But 23, I started competing.

I lost all of my holistic practices & gained the bro diet.

I used PED’s, adderall, & drugs to support myself.

I had no cycle, gut issues, eating disorders & a lot of self hatred.

But I did really well in...

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Unwanted attention from men...

Feb 28, 2021

Say something about my nipples. I dare you.

 

I get a lot of questions from women about unwanted attention from men.

 

Like:

‘I want to be sexually liberated.

‘I want to stand in my power.

 

‘But men scare me.

‘I feel unsafe around them.

 

I GET YOU.

 

I felt unsafe in my sexual body most of my life.

 

I’m gonna say 2 really edgy things:

 

Ready?

 

1 Somewhere inside of you, prob deep in your subconscious, you ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐—ป๐˜ it. In fact, dare I say, you ๐™ก๐™ค๐™ซ๐™š it.

 

2 We can’t wait for men to respect us to stand in our erotic freedom.

 

That shit is ๐’ƒ๐’‚๐’„๐’Œ๐’˜๐’‚๐’“๐’…๐’”.

 

Before panties bunch, I’m not talking about violent sexual attacks, harassment, & abuse.

 

What I’m highlighting is the deep rooted desire of our feminine hearts for male attention & gaze.

 

That. Is. Beautiful.

 

Modern day feminism has smashed on us for even wanting that, telling us to

need no man.

 

Bleh....

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Bringing Turn On Into Your Boundary Setting๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป

Feb 28, 2021

 

To tell it like it is…

 

Nothing turns a ๐˜€๐—ผ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ถ๐—ด๐—ป womxn on more, than an honoring of her boundaries, space, & Self

When I get that…

 

“Hey babe, call me when you have a sec” text

 

over a random call in the middle of my workday

 

I’m ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ก๐™ฎ turned on.

 

I feel respected, my time is valued & he gets the importance of my work flow.

 

I don’t know when boundaries became such a downer…

 

(it’s probably when ๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—ป๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ป๐˜ got tossed out the window)

 

but I want to remind you that they’re actually the complete opposite.

 

Boundaries are a tool to be used for:

***greater intimacy, deeper love & hotter sex***

 

When someone asks you permission to touch your p*ssy, tell me again how ๐˜„๐—ฒ๐˜ it makes you

 

(that’s what I thought)

 

Q: Why would any other boundary be different?

 

These sacred agreements — to be made in & out of the bedroom...

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A Hack For Better Boundaries

Feb 28, 2021

 

While I used to really love the idea of boundaries, because they’re incredibly self serving (can you tell I’m a virgo?), I really only loved just that…

 

the IDEA

The rebel inside of me

loved to play with fire

& loved the drama of:

 

xx having them & not having them

xx having them & having them be broken

xx having them, letting them be broken & then playing like a pig in shit when the shit storm came

 

When I dismantled these internal systems,

Awakened these lost parts of mySelf

& found my own agency,

 

Boundaries became a SPORT.

 

xx How can I use boundaries to have better relationships?

xx How can I use boundaries to bring more erotic energy in?

 

I shifted from looking at boundary setting as:

 

setting boundaries with others

TO

setting boundaries with the Self in RELATION to others

 

Standing in your Truth isn’t just about Knowing who you are & speaking up.

 

It’s about the...

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Asking for the help we need

Feb 28, 2021

 

You’re doing too much. 

If the ๐ข๐ง๐ง๐ž๐ซ ๐œ๐ซ๐ข๐ญ๐ข๐œ keeps saying, “you’re not doing enough” & it feels like you can never get ahead,

it’s probably ๐—น๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€ about what you’re ๐™™๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ & ๐—บ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ about there being **too much on your plate**, with way too high of an ๐™š๐™ญ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™˜๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ to do it ALL.

 

The way I see it…

 

The problem is not in how many pieces of the puzzle.

 

The problem is in how many ๐—ฝ๐—ถ๐—ฒ๐—ฐ๐—ฒ๐˜€ you’re trying to complete at the ๐™จ๐™–๐™ข๐™š ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ข๐™š.

 

(without any support, team, partners in crime)

 

Generally, unless it’s one of those bitch ass iridescent puzzles, you can fairly simply complete a 200, 500, or 1000 piece puzzle.

 

The more pieces, the longer it’ll take.

 

But, you get it done.

 

Whereas, 5 puzzles by yourself is probably gonna be a hot mess.

 

My fellow ๐—ผ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ต๐—ถ๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด womxn who are used to basing their worth off of accomplishments & ‘doing-ness’, remember...

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The game of manifestation is a game of devotion

Feb 28, 2021

The game of manifestation

is a game of devotion

If we’re walking around

saying we want one thing

 

But settling for the next best thing

that comes through our door

 

๐‘ฏ๐’๐’˜ ๐’…๐’†๐’—๐’๐’•๐’†๐’… ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’˜๐’†?

 

Expansion & next level Becoming

requires trust in what will be yours

 

Because inside of you

 

« It’s ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—ฑ๐˜† yours »

 

Just like its already yours

out there in the ๐™ฆ๐™ช๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ช๐™ข

 

This is how I’ve created the life I have now

 

...through endless devotion to the next level, the ultimate vision - without second guessing or letting the fear take over

 

This is not the time for wishy washy decisions

 

It’s a time to commit to your vision

to the gifts you were given

 

So, come into trust

& let down the ego’s fuss

 

If you want it

 

then decide already

 

And be courageous enough

to settle for ๐ง๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐  less

 

And when the doubt creeps in

 

(Because it will)

 

Remember you were...

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Unlocking your full potential

Feb 28, 2021

It felt as good as a ๐ฐ๐ž๐ญ ๐๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ฆ

 

…when she asked the ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ข๐จ๐ง of my work

 

I’m here supporting conscious, powerful, purpose driven womxn to create safety & freedom in their body

By emoting & getting in touch with your

primal wild womxn

 

you release ๐˜€๐˜๐˜‚๐—ฐ๐—ธ ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐—ด๐˜† in the body & dismantle internal systems to take you out of survival mode & ๐˜‚๐—ป๐—น๐—ผ๐—ฐ๐—ธ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ ๐—ณ๐˜‚๐—น๐—น ๐—ฝ๐—ผ๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ป๐˜๐—ถ๐—ฎ๐—น

 

(BIG MAGIC)

 

I guide you home to your ๐’‡๐’†๐’Ž๐’Š๐’๐’Š๐’๐’†

 

to live in the fullness of your being

to feel the spectrum of your emotions & sensitivity (ALIVENESS x connection to Source)

to be in your BIGness - your BEINGness

to ๐—ผ๐—ฝ๐—ฒ๐—ป ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐—ฎ๐˜ & ๐—ฐ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ถ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—ฝ๐—ผ๐˜„๐—ฒ๐—ฟ

to bring you into full Remembrance of who you really are

to soften into your tender, open heart for deep levels of ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ข๐™–๐™˜๐™ฎ

 

I’m here supporting you in ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฐ๐—น๐—ฎ๐—ถ๐—บ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด your inner mother, father, lover, God

 

I stand for your full expression

I want you as BIG & as LOUD as you can be

 

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