I get it...
Going from a structured program/ counting macros to a more intuitive approach with your diet can be hella scary!
When I stopped competing, I didn't know what to do! My body was freaking out. If I ate any carbs my body blew up & I looked super puffy. I had been keto for 10+ weeks & I knew I needed to reverse diet. So, I hired a coach to help me reverse but I knew tracking macros & counting every morsel of food wasn't going to be something maintainable.
After about 9 months of tracking, I went on a trip to Thailand. I didn't train or track any foods over there (obviously :P). And when I came back, I said screw this. I took my health into my own hands for the first time since competing.
& it was the best decision I ever made.