unprocessed trauma manifesting in current day blockages

 remember when he held my hands down above my head & placed a deliciously
firm grip around my neck
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I was 𝙨𝙤 into it
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But before I knew it
& as fast as the rush of pleasure
came into my body
it was 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚
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I found myself in a paralyzed state
tears fiercely running down my face
onto the silky bedsheets beneath me
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My body 𝙡𝙤𝙘𝙠𝙚𝙙.
My heart & p*ssy 𝙘𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙙.
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And while I couldn’t 𝗹𝗼𝗴𝗶𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 understand
what was happening
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I knew my body was no longer in a state of receptivity
Instead, a state of 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗴 𝗱𝗲𝗳𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗲
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This is an example of unprocessed trauma
manifesting in current day blockages
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Not only did this happen with power dynamics
it also occurred with:
✔️anything from behind
✔️any sexual act that was rushed into
✔️all conversations that involved s-e-x
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This was NOT b/c I
✖️didn’t like it
✖️wasn’t into kink play
✖️was a-sexual
✖️didn’t enjoy sex
✖️didn’t actually love my partner.
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(All of which I thought & judged myself over for YEARS.)
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It was b/c
I didn’t feel safe in my body
and had backwards belief systems about
sex x pleasure x men.
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Sister, I feel you if you’re moving through this heaviness right now
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I want you to know & truly feel this in your body
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Sex does not have to feel unsafe
or like your partner is taking something from you
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You don’t have to dissociate or judge yourself for having these kinds of experiences — the peak erotic ones you indulge in or the times you’ve ended up in tears
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Your body has had many experiences
& its reactions are a result of unhealed memories
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You DO NOT need a BIG traumatic event
to have this kind of reaction.
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This happens from ‘small’ traumas collected over time.
The wounding continues b/c the self judgement says,
‘𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙣’𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙪𝙢𝙖.’
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Bullshit.
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We ALL have trauma.
& yours is worthy of exploration.
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