unprocessed trauma manifesting in current day blockages

Jun 22, 2021

 remember when he held my hands down above my head & placed a deliciously
firm grip around my neck
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I was ๐™จ๐™ค into it
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But before I knew it
& as fast as the rush of pleasure
came into my body
it was ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™š
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I found myself in a paralyzed state
tears fiercely running down my face
onto the silky bedsheets beneath me
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My body ๐™ก๐™ค๐™˜๐™ ๐™š๐™™.
My heart & p*ssy ๐™˜๐™ก๐™ค๐™จ๐™š๐™™.
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And while I couldn’t ๐—น๐—ผ๐—ด๐—ถ๐—ฐ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—น๐˜† understand
what was happening
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I knew my body was no longer in a state of receptivity
Instead, a state of ๐˜€๐˜๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฑ๐—ฒ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐˜€๐—ฒ
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This is an example of unprocessed trauma
manifesting in current day blockages
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Not only did this happen with power dynamics
it also occurred with:
โœ”๏ธanything from behind
โœ”๏ธany sexual act that was rushed into
โœ”๏ธall conversations that involved s-e-x
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This was NOT b/c I
โœ–๏ธdidn’t like it
โœ–๏ธwasn’t into kink play
โœ–๏ธwas a-sexual
โœ–๏ธdidn’t enjoy sex
โœ–๏ธdidn’t actually love my partner.
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(All of which I thought & judged myself over for YEARS.)
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It was b/c
I didn’t feel safe in my body
and had backwards belief systems about
sex x pleasure x men.
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Sister, I feel you if you’re moving through this heaviness right now
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I want you to know & truly feel this in your body
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Sex does not have to feel unsafe
or like your partner is taking something from you
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You don’t have to dissociate or judge yourself for having these kinds of experiences — the peak erotic ones you indulge in or the times you’ve ended up in tears
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Your body has had many experiences
& its reactions are a result of unhealed memories
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You DO NOT need a BIG traumatic event
to have this kind of reaction.
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This happens from ‘small’ traumas collected over time.
The wounding continues b/c the self judgement says,
‘๐™”๐™ค๐™ช ๐™๐™–๐™ซ๐™š๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™๐™–๐™™ ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฎ ๐™ฉ๐™ง๐™–๐™ช๐™ข๐™–.’
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We ALL have trauma.
& yours is worthy of exploration.
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If you’re interested in overcoming this lack of safety & awakening your erotic pleasure Goddess to have a wild x free x yummy sex life…
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