My Relationship Dramas 🤫
I’m going to get straight to the point...
I grew up in a dangerously abusive household
My soul made it very clear from an early age, that I was here to unravel big generational patterns & evolve in the realm of relationships
These experiences triggered a series of abusive relationships
Three of which ended in court orders
& one being impregnated without consent
I was so dedicated to ‘the work’, that I stayed in each of those relationships way past their expiration
I kept thinking:
if I can just fix this, then it’ll end
if I can just be better, then he’ll stop
if I can show him I love him more, then he’ll see me
(Replicating my younger self with my caregivers)
It never worked
**I made their issues my issues, which was my issue**
This was a result of not wanting to feel the hurt & pain done to me from an early age
And a trauma response to those experiences
Out of ‘self protection’, I fawned (4th trauma response) & fawned & fawned.
I didn’t know what was up or down during those times.
I couldn’t see myself or my goodness.
So I just kept trying to fix myself & the laundry list of problems pointed out by my abuser.
I didn’t know how GOOD a relationship could be
I didn’t know what honest love was
I hadn’t experienced healthy love or conflict
I hadn’t seen it
One of the biggest reasons I love the Somatic Sexological work I do, is because of the raw, real, authentic love that is experienced in session.
There. Is. Nothing. Like. It.
Except maybe psychedelics.
My desire, from a young age, has been great love.
And for everyone to have great love.
And that’s led me down a magical path of feeling, healing, remembering, & breaking open.
With the first half of my storybook titled “lessons from pain” & the second half “lessons from pleasure”
If you’re ready to break from pain to pleasure, join us for the workshop & LOVE S3X MEN opening on 5/29
You can have it all✨