a profound mushroom journey

i welcomed in the new year with a mushroom ceremony that graciously gave me more than i expected 🍄

watch HERE

i was taken to the writing of my soul contract (there were aliens👽🤗)

& my birth into this world 🌎

it was so beautiful

& also

so heart wrenching

(how could it ever be one without the other 😉)

i was resistant

not in ceremony

but in coming to this world

i had a somatic $ex bod session in Sept which helped move me through what felt like one of my biggest contractions (bc of deeply how i surrendered)…& it was the same theme

🖤resistance to this world… to the 3D

over the last 1.5 years

i’ve watched not only myself but so many of my clients & friends move through similar icky-in between-stuckness🌀

the…i don’t wanna get up & fight…i don’t wanna be here in this body…i don’t wanna do it

i hear…see…feel you💛

some people want ‘more’ - more money, bigger biz, more lovers, hotter $ex, wider impact, more SpIRiTualllllll - because of what they thinkk it’ll do for them

i feel those same people see high level entrepreneurs doing the easy self care thing & think it’s what we do all day

when in reality

i’m sitting in my shit - stretching beliefs, expanding my capacity, feeling the full range of emotions - 89374 x a day 7 days a week

…that’s the R e a l work

that’s what allows me to ACCEPT & receive ‘ease’ when i create it*

this is what it really looks like
this is really what goes on

painful, agonizing, deathening Truth

that will inevitably lead to bliss joy pleasure & nothingness

but damn - theres often a lot of THAT before 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨

Woody, my youngest, had me in a hysterical laughing fit at the end of the journey

when i opened my eyes after alchemizing the suffering

& saw his precious little tongue out as he 💤

.the p e r f e c t i o n.

& then

i looked up at the wall

& there She was

𝗛𝗮𝘁𝗵𝗼𝗿

in all of her divine glory

goddess of love, pleasure, beauty & fertility

standing for the feminine

i wanted to take the towel off of the headboard before snapping this pic, so you could see it as perfect

but instead..i chose the mess

challenging you to still…see it…as perfect

may you remember Who You Really Are
& what you came here for 💛