...after lifetimes of people in authoritative positions taking advantage of those without

This is the importance for 𝙨𝙝𝙖𝙙𝙤𝙬 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙠

& new paradigm leaders

To be 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐞 with our power...

we have to look at:

(a) the places we’ve been scarred by those in higher rankings AND (b) where we’ve exemplified our own abuse of power

We’ll be doing this in 𝐁𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐱 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞

(opens for enrollment tomorrow)

I’m sure some people don’t want to come close

I am a strong mirror

And I’m bound to trigger you

I’m also okay with playing that role

The ones who are scared,

are the ones that will try to scar

And I’m no longer available for that

From that inner declaration, of no longer allowing the energy of envy into my life (TO OR FROM MYSELF):

I 𝙗𝙧𝙖𝙜 I’ve opened the space for an incredibly supportive, loving, wholesome, sexy man that loves me for, & wants...

“I get how it could be hard for people to connect with you.“

“To drop in with you on a true, authentic level, this is going to be a part of the conversation.“

“Your energy is so raw, & it radiates through your aura.“

“I could see how some people are fearful to even come near you.”

I sat with a new friend & spoke deeply about sexuality, relationships, trauma, masc & fem, wounding between men x women, & our animalistic nature last night, as we watched the Costa Rican sunset

Her reflection of how she receives me, is feedback I’ve gotten 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 & 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫

Lately, everywhere I’ve gone,

women have stopped me to tell me,

“you look so beautiful.”

On a waterfall in Montezuma as I skipped down the trails

A proud mother on a retreat as she gazed into my eyes

The whisper from a friend as I stepped out into the ocean

Those words have...

Your next level feels scary because it demands you to 𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘁𝗿𝘂𝘁𝗵 in a way you haven’t before.

It asks you to put 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙩, big time 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙩,

in God, the Universe & yourSelf.

[You’ve done it before, you can do it again!]

This kind of expansion challenges your 𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐭 of what you ever believed was possible

...for 𝒚𝒐𝒖.

I’ve learned in my own journey,

that I’ve always believed.

But I haven’t always believed it,

for 𝒎𝒆.

I feel this in the collective.

When we inevitably reach the level we’ve dreamed of for so long, it can feel like,

‘what now?’

The next chapter might feel too big, unknown, challenging to the belief systems that carried us to this place.

Plus, the ‘𝐡𝐨𝐰’ was a 𝙢𝙮𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙮.

When it happened for me,

my system freaked out.

I started to realize the expansions were so big, my body held the same capacity for 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧.

It...

Over the summer, I sat in my first facilitated plant ceremony with Iboga. I learned a lot about the process & important things to know when sitting.

I was craving a deeper exploration, after a journey that was somewhat mild, & landed myself at Soltara for a 7 day retreat, with 4 ceremonies.

I really can’t say enough about the team at Soltara & everything they have to offer at their center.

An incredible amount of safety, love, intention, thought, & care, goes into the creation of their space, & the journey of the visitor.

Facilitation is an incredibly important piece to any healing modality, especially plants.

As a facilitator, I can tend to have high standards :)

Every one of them was beyond met, & allowed me to relax deeper into the experience & feel tremendously held.

Honestly, it was easy. Not something most would say for an aya retreat.

Granted, every single one of our experiences...

(I like to do this by taking enrollment calls naked )

“Leadership can be divided into two categories: leadership as a role and leadership as a 𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙤𝙛 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜.” — Richard Strozzi-Heckler

New @trppodcast released inviting you into these higher levels!

You’ll learn about:

the descent from

the head into the heart

& what it 𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙪𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 means to be embodied in your 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐩𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 - how it feels // what it looks like // what it creates for yourself x business x the collective // how to make real world change

I’ll talk about the process of 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙤𝙙𝙮 & the importance of integrating your 𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆.

You’ll hear what it feels like when we’re out of EL x how it shows up in our bodies.

Bringing this magic into enrollment calls, changes the game & allows for 𝗮𝘂𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗰 𝗲𝘅𝗽𝗮𝗻𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻.

You’ll receive:

the 𝗸𝗲𝘆 𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗯𝘂𝘁𝗲𝘀

to pioneering your path

+...

I don’t convince people to work with me.

I don’t spend hours on sales calls.

The womxn I call in

know this work is meant for them

& don’t let the fear

or the ‘how to’ stop them.

I’m not available to make decisions 𝗳𝗼𝗿 you.

You already trust the divine call into 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚, with me as your guide.

For years in my biz,

I let the women on the other side of the phone

dictate the flow.

I bent my boundaries,

covered my truths

& accepted their ego stories

of why they couldn’t 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙮𝙚𝙩.

These patterns did not only show up with clients,

but with men too.

I let other people take the drivers seat, naively thinking I was directing ship.

These behaviors are not something I accept anymore.

In my biz,

or my relationships.

This started with Self.

I was scared for a long time

that the person on the other side

would never come back,

or they’d love me less.

But...

When he’s touching your body

& it feels really good,

but you can’t get out of your head

because you want it a little bit slower,

a little more sensual,

-maybe even a nibble right on that spot you like-

…but you don’t say it

because you don’t wanna ‘𝙧𝙪𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙤𝙙’

**you’re leaving 𝗲𝗰𝘀𝘁𝗮𝘀𝘆 on the table**

(And believe you, he wants that)

When you’re on that enrollment call with a potential soul client

& you feel her fear-based blocks come up,

but you don’t say the thing your naughty intuition is screaming at you to shout

because you don’t want to ‘𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟𝐟’

**you’re leaving 𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐲 on the table**

(And believe you, that’s why she’ll pay you)

That thing you really want to say,

is the thing that’ll really turn them ON!

It’s your magic sauce that sets you apart from...

The other part of this story has been the overall transformation of my physical body from the time I started somatic work until now

I said I worked my whole life for this body

& I did

But a deepest learning, was the 𝙥𝙝𝙮𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙡 𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙛𝙩𝙨 that occurred when the other layers of mySelf were nurtured x tended to

When I look in the mirror now
I see the body I always wanted

But it didn’t come from muscling or forcing
my way into it, like my really familiar previous course

It came from bringing the dark parts of my subconscious, into the light

I had to first DECIDE I was done with the struggle & the fight

I needed to put down my weapons

& then get my body onboard

I was
& am a warrior

But she’s no longer the only active part

I brought my soft, sweet, tender feminine back online

Through hours x hours of being with her

**Understanding, acceptance, forgiveness, loving, redefining**

Feeling
Feeling
Feeling
And more
Feeling

Our relationship has shifted & deepened over...

Let’s face it, SOMATICS is the new black

& there’s a big reason why

It’s real, it’s fast, it’s deep

& it 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝘀

But I want to tell you that nothing will 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 fix or heal you or keep hard things from happening

Not just because you’re 𝐢𝐧𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐞

But bc life will 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 continue to happen

Somatic experiencing & embodiment, for myself & clients, has transformed the way we sit in our beingness, & in turn, 𝗱𝗼 life

While magic it is, we’re still the 𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙣𝙨

Magic requires belief, commitment, devotion, love, trust, surrender & feeling

It also requires a 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙥 𝙤𝙛 𝙛𝙖𝙞𝙩𝙝

This kind of wizardry does not depend on what is seen

It depends on blind faith

𝐁𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐡 to the eye,

but 𝗯𝗶𝗴 𝘁𝗿𝘂𝘁𝗵 to the soul

Lately, I’ve seen a lot of womxn walk up to the plate, & then run the other direction

& truthfully, doing big...

The pressure of not fulfilling my potential & soul’s mission was c r i p p l i n g me, everyday.

Not because I didn’t believe in myself or know I was 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 meant to do big things,

but because the FEELING of living this big life

**having the passionate, epic love I dreamed of, traveling the world, making buckets of money, & helping womxn do the same**

was a 𝐟𝐚𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐫 away ‘felt sense’.

It was true in my mind,

but definitely not true in my body.

Honestly, I was really fucking confused.

I did everything I was told to do. And when those didn’t work, I found alternatives that worked better.

So why this 𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙡𝙖𝙘𝙠?

All the work I was doing, while it really did help, still wasn’t getting deep enough into my 𝐬𝐮𝐛𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐜𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬.

...which lives in the BODY.

Cycles repeated, certain behaviors remained, an unconscious sense of 𝗯𝗿𝗼𝗸𝗲𝗻𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀 spewed out when no one was...